Not ready yet

There are no rules when it comes to love, I just try to let love surprise me because you never know who you’re going to fall in love with. You never know who’s going to come into your life – and for me, when I picture the person I want to end up with, I don’t think about what their career is, or what they look like. I picture the feeling I get when I’m with them. – Taylor Swift

I kinda agree with Taylor Swift’s statement.

I know that I have standard or expectation from guy. Can be physically or personality. But that’s not a fixed price and its negotiable. Because I understand the idea that you can’t choose the person you fall in love with. You’re not suppose to. It just happens. Besides, I’m not perfect either.

But one thing for sure, I never looking for a rich guy as my bf or partner. For me, that’s not important and it’s not my goal when it comes to love. I’m looking for someone who can love me for me and can except all my flaws. Because I’m a difficult person to live with and to please. So, if he can stand and put up with all my attitudes, that would be a miracle! I’m also a woman with an attitudes and most men that I’ve met, find me quite challenging. But if the guy who loves me, happens to be a rich, well that’s just a bonus.

But after the “insecure fiancee” incident, few of my friends and my clients tries to hook me up with their friends. it made me cringe….I really don’t need this. Relax people, I have a crush on someone. Kinda like him a little bit. But not obsessed over him and definitely not in love yet.

I like the idea that I have someone that I look forward to see every day in daily basis or at least once or twice a week. But that’s all….

I don’t know where this going to lead… But like I said, I’m still numb. I’m not ready to have relationship. I’m not properly heal yet. But at this moment, I’m definitely not in love with anyone or looking for someone.

When its time, its time. It will come when you least expected.

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Taking baby steps

My friends are worried with my 100% business attitude. I mean, its been a while since I’m on  ’relationship’ mode. But that didn’t mean I’m not going out on a date. I dated or at least I tried to date, but nothing really stick. I’m still not in the mood and still enjoying with what I have in my life at this moment.

When they asked me why…

Well, when someone you loved and trusted with all of your heart gave a big hole in your chest, it might take a while to heal the wound. Perhaps, it might never really heal. There’s a scar that left behind. I know the fact that some scars are meant to stay as a reminder where we’ve been. But that doesn’t mean that it will dictate us where we are going to. So, be patience.

I’m taking baby steps now. Learning to open up. Learning to have faith and learning to give a chance. But, it can’t go all at once. So, when I’m there, I will find him at the end of the road.

And as for my friends, thank you for always being there for me and loving me as I am. You don’t have to worry. I’m a big girl with a kid at heart…. With all of you girls around me, I’ll live. I’ll survive.

Taking Baby Steps

My friends are worried with my 100% business attitude.

I mean, its been a while since I’m on  ’relationship’ mode. But that didn’t mean I’m not going out on a date. I dated or at least I tried to date, but nothing really stick. I’m still not in the mood and still enjoying with what I have in my life at this moment.

When they asked me why…

Well, when someone you loved and trusted with all of your heart gave a big hole in your chest, it might take a while to heal the wound. Perhaps, it might never really heal. There’s a scar that left behind. I know the fact that some scars are meant to stay as a reminder where we’ve been. But that doesn’t mean that it will dictate us where we are going to. So, be patience.

I’m taking baby steps now. Learning to open up. Learning to have faith and learning to give a chance. But, it can’t go all at once. So, when I’m there, I will find him at the end of the road.

And as for my friends, thank you for always being there for me and loving me as I am. You don’t have to worry. I’m a big girl with a kid at heart…. With all of you girls around me, I’ll live. I’ll survive.