I am loved.

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When my friends asked me what made me fall in love with my husband. The answer is super cliche; he loves me when I can’t even love myself and when I wasn’t at my best. He is the kindest person I’ve ever met. That’s what makes me fall in love with him.

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Whatever makes you happy

Me : K, can I dye my hair pink or green?
K.  : Liefje, you can do whatever you like and whatever makes you happy okay? 
I’m happy if you’re happy.
Me : aw aw aw…. So sweet

And yet people still asked me, why I love this man? ppffthhhh

Taking baby steps

My friends are worried with my 100% business attitude. I mean, its been a while since I’m on  ’relationship’ mode. But that didn’t mean I’m not going out on a date. I dated or at least I tried to date, but nothing really stick. I’m still not in the mood and still enjoying with what I have in my life at this moment.

When they asked me why…

Well, when someone you loved and trusted with all of your heart gave a big hole in your chest, it might take a while to heal the wound. Perhaps, it might never really heal. There’s a scar that left behind. I know the fact that some scars are meant to stay as a reminder where we’ve been. But that doesn’t mean that it will dictate us where we are going to. So, be patience.

I’m taking baby steps now. Learning to open up. Learning to have faith and learning to give a chance. But, it can’t go all at once. So, when I’m there, I will find him at the end of the road.

And as for my friends, thank you for always being there for me and loving me as I am. You don’t have to worry. I’m a big girl with a kid at heart…. With all of you girls around me, I’ll live. I’ll survive.

Taking Baby Steps

My friends are worried with my 100% business attitude.

I mean, its been a while since I’m on  ’relationship’ mode. But that didn’t mean I’m not going out on a date. I dated or at least I tried to date, but nothing really stick. I’m still not in the mood and still enjoying with what I have in my life at this moment.

When they asked me why…

Well, when someone you loved and trusted with all of your heart gave a big hole in your chest, it might take a while to heal the wound. Perhaps, it might never really heal. There’s a scar that left behind. I know the fact that some scars are meant to stay as a reminder where we’ve been. But that doesn’t mean that it will dictate us where we are going to. So, be patience.

I’m taking baby steps now. Learning to open up. Learning to have faith and learning to give a chance. But, it can’t go all at once. So, when I’m there, I will find him at the end of the road.

And as for my friends, thank you for always being there for me and loving me as I am. You don’t have to worry. I’m a big girl with a kid at heart…. With all of you girls around me, I’ll live. I’ll survive.

I miss you again, as much as I miss you before

I miss you as much as I miss you before.

When the sky is blue and the weather is still so comfortable to enjoy,
I turn around and look for you.
Even when the sky is dark and the weather become so suffocating,
I still look for you.

Now, I miss you again, as much as I miss you before.
Even though I no longer know how I should treat this feeling,
at least I still knew how it felt.

Where are you?
What are you doing?
Do you still thinking about me?
Miss me?
Still thinking about our love?

Yes…I know, in the end all become harder when the only thing that we had just words and voices.

I still miss you, as much as I miss you before.
It torn me apart inside, but it’s okay because we both felt it.

Maybe now I have to stop crying
Because my tears wont bring you back to me as fast as I want it.

 

Starbucks, Plaza Semanggi
Jakarta, January 27, 2010 10.14